Spare a penny for a poor man?

My friends, how poor I am right now.
On the bright side we've paid rent, bills, did the grocery shopping and I paid my phone bill too.
Now I have until next Wednesday to survive on $12 ha. 
Oh and I bought a gram of speed. Yep. I did. And let me tell you I haven't eaten in 2 and a half days and I feel so fucking good. I did 1 and half hours on the treadmill last night sweating up a storm and I still feel amazing like I could do it again (which I will!) tonight.

I'm really hating being at the house at the moment. My best friends boyfriend is becoming more and more of a looney. Last night I was in my bedroom when I hear him losing his shit about the fucking can opener being in the wrong draw. Uhh? 
This sounds horrible but sometimes I wish they'd break up so he'd move out. I like him and all but he just stresses me and T out so much. If ever we're in a bad mood it's because of him.
Thank fuck he's going away for 2 weeks over christmas. It might make us appreciate him a little more when he returns!




I've also started applying for new jobs. Just reception ones in the city - nothing too fancy! I'm just sick of the call centre. There's only so much you can take there answering the same questions every day and having people screaming at you for the same reason. So stupid. I won't go into it because it'll just make me angry haha!


Hope all is well and everyone is staying strong! Let me know how you're going.
Hugs xo

That kind of fucked up shit.

I've got this little problem going on in my life at the moment.
There's this guy at work who is really lovely and kind of cute (I laughed as I typed that - how immature of me!) and he's funny too HOWEVER he is the clingiest guy I have ever met.
He told me he liked me last night and I just said "you're retarded!" and laughed it off which made today super awkward and oh my goodness my head is spinning because I know he's liked me for a while and I'm stuck in this rut because I tried liking him back because he's just so nice and I know he would be the greatest boyfriend ever but the thing is everytime I try to get into him I just don't feel anything (No time for full stops! Too much to type!)
Anyway, the point of the post is he text me about an hour ago telling me he has an eating disorder which has literally just blown my mind. He says it's not ana or mia but something to do with his mind I don't know I'm not thinking clearly and I'm sure this makes no sense but I just needed to BLURT IT OUT TO THE WORLD! I'm quite angry actually because I'm the first one he's told which means he needs me for support but how do I do that IF I CANT EVEN GET THROUGH THIS MYSELF?! He doesn't know about my darling habits but I'm starting to wonder if he got the vibe and that's why he told me...
Any advise would be greatly appreciated. And heck, if you read through this entire post give yourself a high five and a pat on the back.



I've missed reading about you guys and I really really hope you're all doing well.
Lots of hugs and kisses and positive happy thoughts and rainbows and high fives coming your way! xoxox

Back

This time for good.


Moving out was not what I expected. I fucking love it all the same.
The only thing I'm hating is how lazy i've become and how much my housemates watch what I eat.
It's fucked.


Anyway, I'm back and I've missed you all and I will be commenting to you all asap!!

MIA?

Sorry again for the absense...moving is a pain!
We get the keys and are allowed to officially move in on Saturday HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY! I'm so excited.
We're having a mexican themed house warming that sort of celebrates my birthday too on the 4th of December so I want to look AMAZING for that!!
How is everyone going? I promise I will comment to you guys asap.

(I want to look like her!!)

Oops

Sorry for the absence my darlings.
No real reason for it. I got to day 4 of liquid diet and BINGED LIKE A MOTHER FUCKER.
I did lose 2 kgs but only just.

I really feel like I'm stuck in a rut at the moment. Like I'm just floating through the motions. It's fucked. I know what people mean now when they say they're not living, only existing.

Tuesday - Day 2

Today was good. Not great, but it was alright.
I have a killer headache and my stomach won't shutup. The first 3-4 days are the hardest though so I'm halfway through the barrier!


I HATE not having scales. It's doing my head in!

Monday - Day 1

Well Monday was a success! I told my best friend/desk buddy at work that I'm liquid fasting for "health reasons" and it ends up she wants to do it too which is BRILLIANT. She bought this weird coco stuff that you add to water (it's 38 cals a spoonful - woo!) and you're meant to drink it half an hour before meals. We obviously just drank it for the meal but holy mother fucking shit I was so full after I finished it. I seriously recommend buying it if you're thinking of doing a liquid fast!
The downside is that my scales are fucked. I got on this morning and it said 99 FUCKING KILOS oh gosh I almost died from a heart attack. Luckily my mother told me they say the same for her (she's thinner than me!) so I'll have to buy more asap.
Hope everyone's well! :)